Okay, now
for english. (: How are you all doing? I am doing okay! I am training
Sister Moser from Logan, Utah. She is really good at ilonggo. and I am
trying to speak in ilonggo all the time. haha.
This week has been crazy!! I've had 4 different
companions. Sister Doud went home on monday, so I had to find a
temporary companion. Sister Paula from my ward was so kind and helped me
out. Then on Tuesday Sister Solomone was my companion until we got our
trainee's. and now I have Sister MOser. haha So many companions!!! But
now she is stuck with me for at least 6 weeks(: haha i'm excited!
I've learned alot this week... about how the gospel
is for everyone. Let me tell you an experience. its kinda long so i will
shorten it...
So, two weeks ago my sister doud
and I OYM'ed this old lady and her daughter, and then this past week we
had an appointment with one of our recent converts but she wasn't there
so we decided to go teach the old lady. We were teaching about the
restoration, and how obedience here on earth leads us to return to
heavenly father. Then she went off on how her son was disobedient to her
and bought a mortcycle and got in a crash and now is paralyzed and how
she is mad. then she asked us if we could teach him. So of course we
said yes.
We walked into the house and she has two sons,.
mark-the paralyzed one, and Spiros the one who takes care of him. then
we walked into marks room, and there he was just laying on the bed...
and was kinda embarassed. I felt bad for him. The mom is not very nice. I
asked if we could start again with prayer to invte the spirit. they
agreed. I prayed, in ilonggo, with all my heart that the spirit would
touch the hearts of these people and that they could understand what we
were about to teach them. when we said amen i had the strongest
impression to talk about the plan of salvation and focus on the
resurrection. so that is what we did, even though we had planned to just
sing a song and count it as a contacted referral.
As I started explaining what we were going to talk
about the spirit was there! like so much. Then we just gave a brief
overview with the little cut outs of the plan. and focused on the
resurrection and how he would have a perfected body and that he would be
able to walk again and that he coud go to the celestial kingdom.... we
kinda talked about the kindgoms and I asked where he wanted to go, and
him and Spiros both were crying and said that they wanted to go to the
celestial kingdom. I started to bear my testimony of the blessings and
the decisions of going to the celestial kingdom when Brother Mark spoke
up and said,
"there were many times with I saw you walk past to
go to the other side to the house. I tried to talk to you, I would say
hi to you, and you never came and talked to me. You never said hi."
at that moment when he started talking I knew
exactly what he was talking about. ANd i felt like i was being stabbed
in the heart.... I felt sick. I felt like I was going to puke, like it
was so bad. And then It came rusheing to my memoriy his voice calling to
me and sister bitter all those times... but I also rememer the feelings
that We had to not go and talk to him.. and now I question if those
were from the advarsary , or from the spirit.....
All I could do was repeat say sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry.....
He
said that it was okay cause now we were here, and now he knows. We kept
going on with the lesson, and the spirit was SO STRONG. everyone in the
room had tears in their eyes. I was crying. and it is so hard to talk
in ilonggo and cry . haha, but I learned so much.
Everyone deserves the Gospel! I'm still trying to
figure out why I got the feeling Then to not go talk to him... maybe its
because Sister Moser will have the testimony that he needs? maybe its
becasue it just wasn't the right time? or maybe it was really the
satan... Grr him.
Somtimes I feel like the worst missionary ever.
Sometiems I make such stupid decisions, like not going and talking to
him. Sometimes I forget to talk about a principle and I have to go back
and talk about it. Sometimes I just feel so inadequate. And Training
doesn't help. Training a new missionary and having such a sacred trust
and responsibility puts a lot of stress on me and makes me think I hvae
to be perfect... and because I can't be perfect I am noticing all of my
weeknesses. I swear, it never gets easier! haha
Always trying to become better, and always trying to help and serve everynoe... its so hard. Rewarding, but hard.
I
have to remember, and keep reminding myself, that when Jesus was going
through a hard time, instead of turning in, he turned out and served.
ANd that Is just what I have to do. Just serve. alwasy.
I have another really amazing experience.
We
have an Investigator, sister Joy, sister rosaleahs house help... we
have been trying to fgure out why she is struggling so much and WHY she
is struggling. I talked about her to my district and they didnt' really
help me too much... But then a couple of days ago we wernt and taught
about the law of tithing.
All of a sudden everything just started coming
out... about how her mom doesn't want her to be baptized and how she is 2
now so she can make decisions for herself, and just all this stuff. SO I
asked if we could visit her mom, and just be friends. And she said no. I
think she was afraid.
Then I was prompted to share my testimony of how the
gospel really blesses families and how it blessed mine. So I told her
about how I have a broken family, and how my parents went off the
straight and narrow, and how I spent days and nights praying and crying
to heavenly father to help my family, all of my family return to the
gospel, and how my decision to come on am ission has truely blessed my
family. and I could tell that there was a little spark in her, a spark
of hope.
We ended the lesson, and I asked her if she would
pray.... this would be the second time she has prayed. she said yes. and
then I asked her if we couled all kneel down... she said yes. I was
praying so hard that the spirit would wrap his arms around her and that
she would feel peace and comfort for her decision...
She barely started her prayer and she started
crying. Everyone started crying because the spirit wrapped ALL of us up
in his arms! SHe was so choked up that she couldn't speak... I reached
out and put my hand on her arm and I knew that that is what she needed.
she needed to feel that we loved her. Her prayer was so heartfelt and
sincere. She said..".Please help my mom. Thank you for all the guadance
you give me. Thank you for sending Sister Young to me. I need her.
Please help my; mom. Please help me for strength. THank you for the
Sisters."
I love her so much. She is so tender and sweet, and I
know that this gospel will bless her life. I know that it can soften
her moms heart... I know it did for my mom. (:
After
the prayer, I bore my testimony of the spirit, adn I told her that I
love her and I am here for her. She said, through her tears, "I want you
to visit my mom" That Is what I needed to hear.
Family, Friends, I can't think of a better work to
be engaged in besides this. I have so many experiences of helping
people.... So many things that I will treasure for the rest of my life.
Things that I never want to forget. I wish I could have for ever to
write them all in my journal... but I don't. I wish I could just be a
missionary forever. Even though it is so hard, and so trying, I want to
just help people. I just want to bring them to know the savior, I love
to see the change in people as they accept the gospel in their lives!!!!
I KNOW this is the true chruch.
I love you all! SO MUCH. I hope you can understand
my experiences, I'm kinda rush writing them. But I just want to share
everything with you. Because It is all so amazing and I love it!
Have a great week, I'll be praying for you. Have a
stressless christmas, rmember its not about the Presents, and the fancy
stuff, its about Christ, its about family, its about love and being
together! Its amazing.
I lvo eyou all.
Love, your sister Missionary,\
Sister Young
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