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You know, my faith is always being tested here. Our faith
is tested daily no matter where we are, but for me it seems like it is
such a drastic test every week, and every day. It is crazy. Last week we
had a great week of work... we taught lots of lessons and people were
progressing... and then this week... we struggled to find people to
teach, for members to work with us, and our investigators to progress.
My companion and I are trying everything that we can
think of to make sure the spirit is so strong in our lessons, and to
make sure that we are being obedient, and that we are happy and that we
are helping our investigators... but sometimes it just doesn't feel like
enough. Its so hard.
We had only 2 investigators at church yesterday..
Which is better than 0... but it is just so painful when they tell us
they are going to come, and then don't. 5 other investigators told us
they were coming to church..and they didn't come. It is so sad because I
know that That is the only way for them to receive the blessings that
we have promised them... and they just wont come.
We also had to move the 2 investigators that were
scheduled for baptism this month to July... Satan is such a powerful,
evil spirit! He works in every way to make sure that people don't follow
The Savior... and it makes me so.... GR!
On Saturday
I think I had one of the most powerful lessons with the spirit in a
long time. We were teaching Brother Rolly about the Baptismal covenant
and Confirmation. But before we taught we followed up on his word of
wisdom problem... he still has it. He was so sad when he told us that he
has smoked 4 sticks that day, almost in tears he was. And of course it
just stabbed me in the heart to hear that. but we moved on with the
lesson and as he was reading in the scriptures about our baptismal
covenant and the blessings that we can receive, he just broke down. He
just opened up his heart and told us all his concerns and why he is
smoking and can't seem to stop.
I was crying as he was telling us of his trials and
his problems. He is so depressed and it is so effecting him. Satan has
just been such a pest to him all his life so NOW when he is finding
Christ, it is hard for him to follow Him.
After he was done talking to us about his trials and
how he feels like he has no self worth and he can't get to the
celestial kingdom, I opened up the scriptures to jacob 2 where it says
that the word of god heals a wounded soul and had him read it, and the
spirit was so strong in the room again. And it comforted his soul, and
instantly there was a spark of hope in his eyes... and his countance
changed. Then He said, "Sisters, can I be baptized tomorrow. I need to
make this covenant more early than later."
He has great desire to change, and he comitted to
read the book of mormon anytime he has the urge to smoke, or a bad
thought gets in his head.. Unfortunately, he can't be baptized this
month, but he finally has the end of this life and the beginning of he
new life in sight, and I know he can make it. I know that He can
overcome the temptations of satan!
We can all overcome the many Temptations of satan. It wont be easy, but it will bring happiness.
I know that our trials in life, and our problems are just so we can grow and choose to come closer to our Savior.
Love, Your sister Missionary,